Touch You There

you like when I touch you there
you feel good when I touch you there
that is why I touch you there
I want you to feel good
you want to feel good
that's why I touch you there

I feel you tremble
I feel you press against my hand
insert my fingers
your eyes tell me you understand
you want to feel good
you want me to touch you there
I want you to feel good
that is why I touch you there

I hear you gasping
your body stiffens with each touch
your senses pulsing
you never wanted a touch so much
I never wanted to touch so much
it feels so good
euphoria shared
it feels so good
that is why I touch you there

let the music take you now
to where no one's gone before
let our fingers show us how
to feel so good there is no more

so aware
beyond prayer
beyond compare
everything we share
is everything
when I touch you there
so much care
that is why I touch you there

connected

You must be connected to be attractive to me you must be aware of everything so open and free that nothing could ever kill your ecstacy no matter how down you get there is still deeper sea and be as comfortable with yourself as you are with me and follow all the links like kisses from the stars that find you where you are and raise you higher than you've ever been before and all you know is youare free and you want more and more and more and always more.

Sitting naked on the floor
with your back against the door
exposed as anyone can be
just for you and me

ready to live, ready to die
because we found each other
there is nothing more to do
than share everything
as if everything is new
just for me and you

So Serious

Sometimes I get so serious it hurts. Sometimes I get so sensitive it hurts even more. I feel the whole world aching to be safe and secure, to be comfortable and free, to be able to survive. If you want to share a bed with me, you must understand you may never understand the way I see and feel and still you must accept me as I am and believe. If you doubt me I will know and the attraction will fade in an instant (though it might be prolonged by loneliness if you are a libido fantasy and will accept the simple physical connection).

If you want more, you've got to have faith in me. You must actualize unconditional trust. I do. If that trust is violated we must lay ourselves open, naked, and bare our souls and psyches to each other if there is any hope of continuing to be as close as two can be. I will live the fairy tale with you, I will live our mutual dreams, I will give you everything I am and reach for everything you want and that is all I ask from you.

When trust is unconditional we can find ourselves laughing or crying at anything and the key to our success together will be how many ways we see eye to eye in our laughter and our tears. Anyone can love unconditionally, rare is the one who can trust unconditionally. It is too serious for most.

The Physical

There is a website I created long ago dedicated to my Libido. It is called Libboland and explains, giving examples of famous people, what turns my libido on. There is a page for each of the five senses, but the visual libido is the most dominant aspect of my sensual psyche so there are people listed (and the specific attributes each possess) that inspire the greatest sensual desire in me. If you want to be my lover, looking like those on the Libbo Eyes page would get you an interview (if you are not laughing, your sense of humor would likely get you no more than a one night stand... if you are still not laughing, you might not even get that). The physical is transient, temporary, but oh so vital to be my lover.

So yes, sense of humor is as important as anything for me when it comes to physical attraction and sharing bodies. Intelligence is as important (and goes hand in hand with sense of humor if you are intelligent enough to understand the ways of the brain and psyche). Understanding each other is at the core of any attraction for me. Kindness, altruism, and the ability to actualize unconditional love and unconditional trust are powerful attractors. You can read through my old BIOS for more insight (the site is a snapshot in words of "me" that is almost twenty years old).

On a purely physical level, faces grab my libido's attantion first. Eyes and lips dominate, but noses and the overall face can melt or repel me. It is instinctive and not always simple to describe why. Petite fit bodies appeal to my libido most. Fat and flabby bodies repulse my libido. Maybe it's a primal instinct, maybe it is just my libido. Let's not judge, for judgmental perspectives and attitudes are repulsive to my libido. Acceptance of each other as we are and accepting attractions and preferences as they are is essential to getting respect for me. Respect is essential to move past a momentary liason or even to get one.

In any case, if you look like one of these people in the photos below, you are welcome (and encouraged) to come and knock on my door as a potential lover. See through Libbo Eyes (linked above) for other looks also welcome (and understand if you want to stay) :)

sensuality

is it luck or fate or do you really know
how much deeply sensual beauty you show
are you consciously aware of how you got there
or is it just going with the flow
are you just going with the flow?

sensuality
is so much more than we see
but we all know visually
how someone can be
unapproachably
casual and free

when you look at me
there is no denying what you see
as you hunger viscerally
for someone who can be
irresistibly
sensuality

take my hand and touch your promised land
let your fantasy go where it will
no one else needs to understand
if it is just the thrill
is is more than just the thrill

hold me close and feel your self unfold
let your body sweep your mind away
forget everything else you've been told
you have found all you need today
sensuality today

let your sensuality
come out to play

sensuality
is so much more than we see
but we all know visually
how someone can be
unapproachably
casual and free

when you look at me
there is no denying what you see
as you hunger viscerally
for someone who can be
irresistibly
sensuality

roll with the flow
roll with the flow
roll with the flow
maybe you know

but even if you know
roll with the flow
roll with the flow
let yourself go

feeling

feelings should not be secrets, and yet, that is how most treat them when they find them, keeping them hidden away... if you are hidden away, you don't share much so we won't share much... that is a sad feeling for me as sharing is what life is all about so not sharing wastes life... sometimes you can see that awareness in someone's eyes and movements, though visual confirmation is not enough and remains remote sensing, or illusion until more contact is shared... for instance, i sense this knowledge of sharing in, for example, mila kunis... mila jovovich... several others as well...

it is much more than an awareness of the physical body, though sensuality is an essential aspect of being able to share... most people are afraid of the body, their own and others, neglecting and losing touch with it more and more (some never let themselves feel their own body even before the fear and repressions are learned, some never link the sensuality awareness with the consciousness because it is such a cultural taboo)... that is a sad feeling for me for sensuality is what life is about so not being consciously aware of your own sensuality wastes the body, the life...

and personally...

for me, the conscious awareness was clear in early childhood... and still, fear keeps others away... and hope for someone who can overcome their fear diminishes a little more every day...

and that is a very sad feeling for me...

same old silence

i am looking for a lover who won't drive me crazy
and a lover who will not try to change me
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex
and can satisfy a body without wanting to be
the beginning and end of my world
can you just be satisfied getting your toes curled
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me

i do not want to use or abuse
or put anyone one down
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears
that have plagued humanity for so many years

i do not want the guilt or the shame
there is no one to blame
because there is nothing wrong with sharing
physical love with someone caring

can you love without the fear?
can you let go of religious persecution?
can you live without the lies?
can you find your way out of the delusions?

can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live

i am looking for a lover who won't try to cage me
a lover who will not try to judge or change me
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex
and can satisfy a body without wanting needing permission
or any other arbitrary tradition or conditions
can you just be satisfied reaching sensual fruition
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me

and i hear the same old silence
maybe even an old gasp
from the frightened hooked on violence
living lies and rushing past
all the lonely and deluded
sold the ancient ignorance
so afraid of looking foolish
that they never join the dance
hiding behind their walls
pretending to ignore natures calls
don't ask don't tell
i don't buy what they sell

i do not want to use or abuse
or put anyone one down
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears
that have plagued humanity for so many years

i do not want the guilt or the shame
there is no one to blame
because there is nothing wrong with sharing
physical love with someone caring

can you love without the fear?
can you let go of religious persecution?
can you live without the lies?
can you find your way out of the delusions?

can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live

i am looking for a lover who will love honestly
a lover who let go of corrupted morality
i am looking for a friend who unafraid of the body
and can share passion and embrace ecstasy
when love is unconditional
that's when it is beautiful
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me

return of loneliness

the loneliness is deeper than the skin
well beyond horniness
a longing to share from within
the deepest recesses
of the heart and mind
the secrets only the best friends
can ever find

would you take the time?
would you really care?
would you let yourself go
and really share?

would you give yourself?
would you take me too?
would you would you help create
something made of me and you?

could you handle honesty
if we didn't turn each other on?
could you be a true friend
when the lust or novelty is gone?

do you understand that loneliness
is not love?
and i am feeling loneliness so much

could you handle honesty
if it was just a physical thing?
could you be a true friend
or would you just be a fling?

do you understand that loneliness
is not love?
and i am feeling loneliness so much

could you be
someone
who understands?

could you be
someone
who can hold hands?

would you take the time?
would you really care?
would you let yourself go
and really share?

would you give yourself?
would you take me too?
would you would you help create
something made of me and you?

the loneliness is deeper than the skin
well beyond horniness
a longing to share from within
the deepest recesses
of the heart and mind
the secrets only the best friends
can ever find

alone for years

the first time i fell in love i was not thinking much... so young and unconditional... naked, touching, humping, rolling on each other... so little fear at 4 years old... from then until just a few years ago i was in love and physically sharing love (and sexually active, shared or not) every day of this life... most years i had an active partner, but when i did not, i easily immersed myself in a fantasy of someone, at least visually... unconditional trust and falling in love was just being me...

all that changed just after the millennium changed... i found myself less willing to compromise... but even from a distance, in fantasy, i found myself more challenged to find someone who would inspire me to fall in love... even on the pure physical level, i found myself more challenged to find someone who would turn on libido... and most important of all, i found myself more challenged than ever to find someone who inspired me to want to trust unconditionally... and i write this wondering - do you understand that?... or this?...

and after a bit of wonderful masturbation earlier today i realized that it has been years since i fell in love with someone on any level... it is perspective, my perspective that has changed... i see the fear in the faces and i realize they do not trust themselves and therefore they cannot trust me and therefore, unlike before, i do not pretend to forget that i am a fool to unconditionally trust them... i know too much, see too much, feel too much, perceive too much, sense too much, and think too much... but how to un-know the signs?...

all

i wold tell you all my secrets if you cared to listen intensely enough to stay awake because you felt you could not stop listening for the sheer fascination of wanting to know me that much...

we don't have to fall in love, we just have to care enough...

sincerity

if I fell in love with you
would you want me to
come closer
or mover farther away

if I fell in love with you
oh what would you do
come closer
or move farther away

intensity
can be an enemy
it’s much easier to be
superficial friends

but honesty
has more appeal for me
and yet sincerity
leads to such sudden ends

so if I simply smile at you
would you want me to
come closer
or move further away

if I simply smile at you
oh what would you do
come closer
or move farther away

humanity
can be an enemy
it’s much easier to be
oblivious to love

oh can you see
that insecurity
makes love the enemy
and so they look above

when the real world gets too scary
do you pray
or do you find a way
to stay?

reality
can be an enemy
it’s much easier to be
lost in fantasy

but honesty
has more appeal for me
and so sincerity
is my way to be
sincerity
sets me free

so if I shared myself with you
whatever you choose to do
come closer
or move farther away

I will still smile at you
and wish you well
and are free to come or go
and if you want to know
when my true feeling show
I would rather
you’d stay

compromise

compromise
love is compromise
compromise
love is compromise
right before your eyes
it takes off your disguise
love is compromise
oh oh, compromise

it would be nice to hold someone tonight
to feel the softness of a lover's touch
to rest against a supple breast, alright
sometimes i miss a hug so much
but complications and controls
the human mind has other goals
confused hearts judge and condemn
other bodies and souls
is that the way the cookie rolls?

i don't want to buy or sell you
don't want you to own me
promises can come later
with the illusion of eternity

what i am trying to say is
tomorrow is light years away
and i don't want to waste any energy
on what might or might never be
or words we do not want to say
today

so please don't tell me lies
and dreams can keep for when we sleep
speak to me with your hands and thighs
let this moment make love so deep
that there is no other time
no alibis
just compromise

compromise
love is compromise
compromise
love is compromise
right before your eyes
it takes off your disguise
love is compromise
oh oh oh, compromise

if tomorrow you're still here
maybe we will grow to care
and reach for more things to share
be together everywhere
but each moment matters more
and the one that came before
and the one that's yet to be
that's tomorrow's fantasy

right now i feel you next to me
and inside you can feel me rise
touch the moment's reality
dive into each others eyes
form the bond between our lips
bring heaven down from the skies
unison dance in our hips
this is love without the lies
no other place no other time
no alibis
just compromise

compromise
love is compromise
compromise
love is compromise
right before your eyes
it takes off your disguise
love is compromise
oh oh oh oh, compromise

i am me and you are you
whatever else might be true
we can agree with our eyes
leave behind all the old lies
here is space, now is time
no alibis
just compromise

there is ice and there is fire
whatever else we may desire
we can agree with our thighs
leave behind all the old lies
here is space, now is time
no alibis
just compromise

compromise
love is compromise
compromise
love is compromise
right before your eyes
it takes off your disguise
love is compromise
oh oh oh oh, compromise
oh oh oh oh, compromise
oh oh oh oh, compromise

alonenss

feeling the aloneness
not as lonely as I used to get
is that something that I should regret
as the longing for loving touches diminishes
with each passing year
knowing the end is closer now
than it’s ever been
knowing the best of life’s time
is way back when
at least physically
there’s not much left of me
and yet the magic only takes a moment
and one moment of true love is an eternity
so I hope as always
it’ll happen to me

just one more moment before this body dies
just one more moment of this life’s greatest high
just one more moment of the sharing of love’s bliss
just one more moment, one more touch, one more kiss

feeling the isolation
not as frightened as I used to get
is that something that I should regret
as the desperation to be loved diminishes
with each passing year
knowing it’s not worth much unless
someone wants to give it
knowing all the wanting in the world
will not make someone else live it
and so physically
there’s no one here with me
and I don’t pretend I can force anyone
share true love, so I wait and let it be
and I hope as always
someone will love me

just one more moment before this body dies
just one more moment of this life’s greatest high
just one more moment of the sharing of love’s bliss
just one more moment, one more touch, one more kiss

softly, sweetly, touch the sweet sensation

i will live

it’s an aching loneliness
i confess
was it the cat curling up
while i slept
that awoke this loneliness
what a mess
how much more am i to bear
growing need
emo bleed
desperate for someone to hear

but not just anyone
no, not just anyone

the wagons circle
shudders close
there must be someone
who knows
how to reach that part of me
so long sleeping
promise keeping
worshipping what no one sees
how alone
can any one person be

but not just any one
oh, not just any one

the eyes roll back
heartbeats relax
and i am ready to die…
but i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
for love
for love
for love

it’s an aching loneliness
i confess
was it the cat curling up
while i slept
waking with a living breathing
animal in my arms
waking charms
what a mess
how much more am i to bear
growing need
emo bleed
desperate for someone to hear

but not just anyone
no, not just anyone

i mean no harm
i work hard to make that true
in every little thing i do
it is my way
and most of you
might say it is the way
of an innocent child, ok
maybe that is why i remain
alone again, unnaturally, in pain
please allow me to introduce myself
or please allow me to go insane

the eyes roll back
heartbeats relax
and i am ready to die…
but i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love
for love
for love
for love

it’s an aching loneliness
i confess
was it watching the couples kissing
at the party
wishing someone was with me
in that way
what can i say
what a mess
how much more am i to bear
growing need
emo bleed
desperate for someone to hear

but not just anyone
no, not just anyone

i will live for love
i will live for love
i will live for love

meaning

it really does not matter what i say
the words will keep flowing anyway
it means nothing more than what you want it to mean
what means something are the moments you share with me

it really does not matter if this song is sung
the words will keep flowing now that it's begun
but the words were meaningless before it began
what means something are the moments you hold my hand

and these words can tell the world how much i love you
and these words can give others hope they might find
someone who can make these words mean something true
but for me and you, it's just a song we leave behind
for what means something is what we feel in our hearts
and what we believe in our minds

i believe in you
i believe you believe in me
the words are meaningless
what means everything, you see
is what we do for each other
what we do with each other
what i do for you
what you do for me
the moment we share
mean everything to me
the way that you care
means everything to me
each moment you are here
means everything to me

it really does not matter if anyone hears
the words are only breaths we share
the words and breaths only mean what you want them to mean
what means something are the moments you are with me
each moment you are here means everything to me

stranger at the orgy

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

this is no passion play
even if you drive me wild
you might be my libido fantasy
but listen to me child

i'm not just here for sex
but i am not afraid
so if you want to touch me
if you want to be laid

you might get what you want here
but i want something more
and as i give it to you
i'll look for your closed door

and ask for it to open
to see the real inside
for i am here to know you
and not just for the ride

so what do you want?
we can spin the room around
let our feelings overflow
make that gasping suckling sound
put our primal selves in gear
leave all consciousness behind
and wake up in pools of passion
as if we both lost our mind

and if that's all you can offer
a sigh comes with morning light
anyone can be your lover
but i'll pass on you tonight

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

i'm not just here for sex
i don't want to pretend
i'm not just here for sex
i'm looking for a friend

fill in the blank

what does it take to earn your adoration
how can i be more attractive to you
do you know yourself well enough to express your desire
or does it just come up from behind and surprise you
i wish i knew what to do

you are the most adorable person i've ever met
you match every dream lover i've ever known
my heart melts every time your eyes meet mine
your smile ignites fireworks in my mind
you walk into a room and i find
my libido panting
please be kind

what can i do to find out how you feel about me
how can i know without pushing you away
if there is no attraction i still want to know you
i'll be your most loyal friend till my dying day
i wish i knew what to say

you inspire me to want to be a better person
i will serve you to keep you somehow in my life
my heart grows everytime your eyes meet mine
your smile inspires compassion in my mind
you walk into a room and i find
my confidence rise
i unwind

and if i am not the right one for you
that's alright because you inspire me
to believe in myself and all i knew
before i learned about cruelty
you take me back to a simpler time
when innocence still so strong and free
and hope was all i needed to rhyme
as i wrote the words would sing to me
you bring back my inner child
my inner voice
belief in fantasy
and you remind me
i have the choice
to create my reality

so i'll just say thank you and move along
if you are not interested in knowing more
but if you don't mind, i'll sing this song
to you, ________ who i will always adore

in the moment

living in the moment always brings me ecstasy
trusting every moment is the ideal way for me
loving every moment can maintain my sanity
and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free

cuz the moment is all you can ever really see
if you want your fantasy to become reality
live in the moment unconditionally
cuz living in the moment is the best way to be



fuck the brains out of the one who turns you on
it doesn't really matter if tomorrow she is gone
cuz you will have another fantasy to yearn for by then
and if you find she's still around well do it again

and love every moment with all you can give
that is the best way to be and to live
don't let fear fool you into wasting time
love every moment and make your life rhyme

believe this is true today
because it is true everyday
believe this one thing i say
believe the right one will stay
in that moment that will never fade away

so love every moment you can if you will
the choice has always been yours, don't fear the thrill
living in the moment is the way to ecstasy
trusting every moment is the ideal way for me

loving every moment can maintain my sanity
and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free
cuz the moment is all you can ever really see
if you want your fantasy to become reality

live in the moment unconditionally
cuz living in the moment is the best way to be
love in the moment unconditionally
cuz loving in the moment is the best way to be

la la la

forgiveness

so how the hell are you and what do you want
to come out and play as if you can still flaunt
the words that seduce me as only you can
as long as i don't show how easy i am

but you can pretend i am hard to get
you can look past my slutty girl with no regret
and my pathetic child is easy to forget
beggars for love have no real home yet

out on the street corner with those wide-eyes
like a stray dog much more lucky than wise
follow you home for as long as you say
and after he's gone he never goes away

but like that hotel in california
the junkies and love children wouldn't warn ya
'bout the endlessness of endless love maybe lust
and the power of passion is what we should trust

but we all choose to be just what we settle for
even if there are demons knocking on the door
we can keep them at bay with a cowardly roar
cuz it's all just illusion to see or ignore

so you want me to love you again here we are
cuz running the same circle never gets us far
and the love never changes even when we do
ignore it, accept it, it's still up to you

maybe now you might know this, maybe now you will cry
for the child you set up and left behind to die
gasp, but you won't back up if you really know what's true
that child is not me she has always been you

all the words ever written on the high or low shelf
are worth less than nothing until...
you forgive yourself

. . .

so how the hell are you and what do you want?
to come out to play as if you can still flaunt
the words that seduce me as only you can
well be who you are that's a part of the plan

(thank you dan)

ride

my lips pressed against your shoulder
my hands curved around your waist
my body moving to the beat of your heart
what better way for the passion to start

i slip my hands a little further
down and around to where you feel
the magic of your love is pulsing
one press of your button and the love is so real

i can feel your body tremble spooned in mine
you can feel me growing into you
as our breathing reaches deeper into the night
there is only one thing left to do

ride the passion to the end of time
ride the magic into one more rhyme
ride the rhythm of the heartbeat song
faster and faster this is where we belong

ride the river of sweet sensation
ride the waves of sensual vibration
ride the rhythm of the heartbeat song
faster and faster how could this be wrong

ride the wonder of our love
feel it growing strong
ride the wonder of our love
this is where we belong

ride
ride
ride
ride
ride