return of loneliness

the loneliness is deeper than the skin
well beyond horniness
a longing to share from within
the deepest recesses
of the heart and mind
the secrets only the best friends
can ever find

would you take the time?
would you really care?
would you let yourself go
and really share?

would you give yourself?
would you take me too?
would you would you help create
something made of me and you?

could you handle honesty
if we didn't turn each other on?
could you be a true friend
when the lust or novelty is gone?

do you understand that loneliness
is not love?
and i am feeling loneliness so much

could you handle honesty
if it was just a physical thing?
could you be a true friend
or would you just be a fling?

do you understand that loneliness
is not love?
and i am feeling loneliness so much

could you be
someone
who understands?

could you be
someone
who can hold hands?

would you take the time?
would you really care?
would you let yourself go
and really share?

would you give yourself?
would you take me too?
would you would you help create
something made of me and you?

the loneliness is deeper than the skin
well beyond horniness
a longing to share from within
the deepest recesses
of the heart and mind
the secrets only the best friends
can ever find

all

i wold tell you all my secrets if you cared to listen intensely enough to stay awake because you felt you could not stop listening for the sheer fascination of wanting to know me that much...

we don't have to fall in love, we just have to care enough...

stranger at the orgy

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

this is no passion play
even if you drive me wild
you might be my libido fantasy
but listen to me child

i'm not just here for sex
but i am not afraid
so if you want to touch me
if you want to be laid

you might get what you want here
but i want something more
and as i give it to you
i'll look for your closed door

and ask for it to open
to see the real inside
for i am here to know you
and not just for the ride

so what do you want?
we can spin the room around
let our feelings overflow
make that gasping suckling sound
put our primal selves in gear
leave all consciousness behind
and wake up in pools of passion
as if we both lost our mind

and if that's all you can offer
a sigh comes with morning light
anyone can be your lover
but i'll pass on you tonight

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

i'm not just here for sex
i don't want to pretend
i'm not just here for sex
i'm looking for a friend

in the moment

living in the moment always brings me ecstasy
trusting every moment is the ideal way for me
loving every moment can maintain my sanity
and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free

cuz the moment is all you can ever really see
if you want your fantasy to become reality
live in the moment unconditionally
cuz living in the moment is the best way to be



fuck the brains out of the one who turns you on
it doesn't really matter if tomorrow she is gone
cuz you will have another fantasy to yearn for by then
and if you find she's still around well do it again

and love every moment with all you can give
that is the best way to be and to live
don't let fear fool you into wasting time
love every moment and make your life rhyme

believe this is true today
because it is true everyday
believe this one thing i say
believe the right one will stay
in that moment that will never fade away

so love every moment you can if you will
the choice has always been yours, don't fear the thrill
living in the moment is the way to ecstasy
trusting every moment is the ideal way for me

loving every moment can maintain my sanity
and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free
cuz the moment is all you can ever really see
if you want your fantasy to become reality

live in the moment unconditionally
cuz living in the moment is the best way to be
love in the moment unconditionally
cuz loving in the moment is the best way to be

la la la

adult friend finder

or, for internet searching purposes, adult friendfinder (or AFF for that matter)... this blog begins inspired by my exploration of the adult friendfinder website (which i found a long time ago when i was a member of the friendfinder website, like ten years ago, which was G rated and i don't even know if it's still there at the moment), an x rated social networking website which does everything in it's power to get you to pay for sex, or at least the opportunity to read profiles and connect with others who supposedly want sex...

most of what i found there were people hiding behind profiles interested in little more than comment flirtation, idle titillation, cyber-sex, and other fff (fantasies from afar, fake friend finding, or some more vulgar anagrammatic silliness, you play with it and let me know what you come up with)... actual people interested in actual "friend finding" allusion in the site name might find it is more illusion than actuality, but then, there's always hope, which is why this blog, or at least this blog entry, is here...

if you were wise enough to notice my repeated mentions of blogspot and came here to search for friendalover, then here we are... friend a lover, get it, i want a lover who won't drive me crazy (mentally or emotionally) while driving me well beyond crazy in bed (or wherever we happen to be sharing our passions)... in other words, i want to friend and lover... a lover who is a friend... possible?... anything is possible...

even magic :)

whether i return to continue this blog (and whatever this blog may become) may be seen in time, but for now it is here to let you find me, not the censored must pay to meet me AFF me, but the me you can meet through uncensored public comments, through private email at candor AT bellsouth DOT net, or by calling 407-325-1482...

if you have not read my blog at AFF to see what i am looking for, then read on here and eventually you will know... if you do not want to read to see what i am looking for (or just don't care), then you are probably not what i am looking for... the first thing i am looking for is a friend, someone who cares to know me, someone who wants me to know her, someone who will make the time, share the time to do that... i shall return when i have the time and...

we shall see where this goes together :)