tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66319646548133044242024-02-07T14:00:43.129-05:00friend a loverdescription?... not exactly sure just yet... but maybe if you hum a few bars :)candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-33419549609480368282018-04-28T02:03:00.001-04:002018-04-28T02:11:09.324-04:00Touch You There<center><br />
you like when I touch you there<br />
you feel good when I touch you there<br />
that is why I touch you there<br />
I want you to feel good<br />
you want to feel good<br />
that's why I touch you there<br />
<br />
I feel you tremble<br />
I feel you press against my hand<br />
insert my fingers<br />
your eyes tell me you understand<br />
you want to feel good<br />
you want me to touch you there<br />
I want you to feel good<br />
that is why I touch you there<br />
<br />
I hear you gasping<br />
your body stiffens with each touch<br />
your senses pulsing<br />
you never wanted a touch so much<br />
I never wanted to touch so much<br />
it feels so good<br />
euphoria shared<br />
it feels so good<br />
that is why I touch you there<br />
<br />
let the music take you now<br />
to where no one's gone before<br />
let our fingers show us how<br />
to feel so good there is no more<br />
<br />
so aware<br />
beyond prayer<br />
beyond compare<br />
everything we share<br />
is everything<br />
when I touch you there<br />
so much care<br />
that is why I touch you there<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-51192730425358615732016-04-19T08:08:00.001-04:002016-04-19T08:08:31.332-04:00connected<p align=justify>You must be connected to be attractive to me you must be aware of everything so open and free that nothing could ever kill your ecstacy no matter how down you get there is still deeper sea and be as comfortable with yourself as you are with me and follow all the <a href=http://chocoelated.blogspot.com/2016/04/cocoa-puffs.html target="_blank">links</a> like kisses from the <a href=http://outotblue.blogspot.com/2016/04/party-moods.html target="_blank">stars</a> that find you where you are and raise you higher than you've ever been before and all you know is youare free and you want more and more and more and always more. </p><br />
<center>Sitting naked on the floor<br />
with your back against the door<br />
exposed as anyone can be<br />
just for you and me<br />
<br />
ready to live, ready to die<br />
because we found each other<br />
there is nothing more to do<br />
than share everything<br />
as if everything is new<br />
just for me and you</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-29650640134449905592015-05-20T03:15:00.000-04:002016-05-20T03:20:43.661-04:00So SeriousSometimes I get so serious it hurts. Sometimes I get so sensitive it hurts even more. I feel the whole world aching to be safe and secure, to be comfortable and free, to be able to survive. If you want to share a bed with me, you must understand you may never understand the way I see and feel and still you must accept me as I am and believe. If you doubt me I will know and the attraction will fade in an instant (though it might be prolonged by loneliness if you are a libido fantasy and will accept the simple physical connection). <br />
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If you want more, you've got to have faith in me. You must actualize unconditional trust. I do. If that trust is violated we must lay ourselves open, naked, and bare our souls and psyches to each other if there is any hope of continuing to be as close as two can be. I will live the fairy tale with you, I will live our mutual dreams, I will give you everything I am and reach for everything you want and that is all I ask from you. <br />
<br />
When trust is unconditional we can find ourselves laughing or crying at anything and the key to our success together will be how many ways we see eye to eye in our laughter and our tears. Anyone can love unconditionally, rare is the one who can trust unconditionally. It is too serious for most. <br />
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candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-9445097492972452872014-05-20T02:49:00.000-04:002016-05-20T03:24:29.019-04:00The PhysicalThere is a website I created long ago dedicated to my Libido. It is called <a href=http://candoor.net/bios/libbo target="_blank">Libboland</a> and explains, giving examples of famous people, what turns my libido on. There is a page for each of the five senses, but the visual libido is the most dominant aspect of my sensual psyche so there are people listed (and the specific attributes each possess) that inspire the greatest sensual desire in me. If you want to be my lover, looking like those on the <a href=http://candoor.net/bios/libbo/libboeyes.html target="_blank">Libbo Eyes</a> page would get you an interview (if you are not laughing, your sense of humor would likely get you no more than a one night stand... if you are still not laughing, you might not even get that). The physical is transient, temporary, but oh so vital to be my lover. <br />
<br />
So yes, sense of humor is as important as anything for me when it comes to physical attraction and sharing bodies. Intelligence is as important (and goes hand in hand with sense of humor if you are intelligent enough to understand the ways of the brain and psyche). Understanding each other is at the core of any attraction for me. Kindness, altruism, and the ability to actualize unconditional love and unconditional trust are powerful attractors. You can read through my old <a href=http://candoor.net/bios target="_blank">BIOS</a> for more insight (the site is a snapshot in words of "me" that is almost twenty years old). <br />
<br />
On a purely physical level, faces grab my libido's attantion first. Eyes and lips dominate, but noses and the overall face can melt or repel me. It is instinctive and not always simple to describe why. Petite fit bodies appeal to my libido most. Fat and flabby bodies repulse my libido. Maybe it's a primal instinct, maybe it is just my libido. Let's not judge, for judgmental perspectives and attitudes are repulsive to my libido. Acceptance of each other as we are and accepting attractions and preferences as they are is essential to getting respect for me. Respect is essential to move past a momentary liason or even to get one. <br />
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In any case, if you look like one of these people in the photos below, you are welcome (and encouraged) to come and knock on my door as a potential lover. See through Libbo Eyes (linked above) for other looks also welcome (and <a href=http://friendalover.blogspot.com/2015/05/so-serious.html target="_blank">understand</a> if you want to stay) :)<br />
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candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-25393558745912236152013-03-15T10:22:00.001-04:002013-03-15T10:26:02.439-04:00sensuality<center>is it luck or fate or do you really know<br />
how much deeply sensual beauty you show<br />
are you consciously aware of how you got there<br />
or is it just going with the flow<br />
are you just going with the flow?<br />
<br />
sensuality<br />
is so much more than we see<br />
but we all know visually<br />
how someone can be<br />
unapproachably <br />
casual and free<br />
<br />
when you look at me<br />
there is no denying what you see<br />
as you hunger viscerally<br />
for someone who can be<br />
irresistibly<br />
sensuality<br />
<br />
take my hand and touch your promised land<br />
let your fantasy go where it will<br />
no one else needs to understand<br />
if it is just the thrill<br />
is is more than just the thrill<br />
<br />
hold me close and feel your self unfold<br />
let your body sweep your mind away<br />
forget everything else you've been told<br />
you have found all you need today<br />
sensuality today<br />
<br />
let your sensuality <br />
come out to play<br />
<br />
sensuality<br />
is so much more than we see<br />
but we all know visually<br />
how someone can be<br />
unapproachably <br />
casual and free<br />
<br />
when you look at me<br />
there is no denying what you see<br />
as you hunger viscerally<br />
for someone who can be<br />
irresistibly<br />
sensuality<br />
<br />
roll with the flow<br />
roll with the flow<br />
roll with the flow<br />
maybe you know<br />
<br />
but even if you know<br />
roll with the flow<br />
roll with the flow<br />
let yourself go<br />
<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-19959072052794759822012-12-01T10:42:00.000-05:002013-03-15T13:40:32.720-04:00feelingfeelings should not be secrets, and yet, that is how most treat them when they find them, keeping them hidden away... if you are hidden away, you don't share much so we won't share much... that is a sad feeling for me as sharing is what life is all about so not sharing wastes life... sometimes you can see that awareness in someone's eyes and movements, though visual confirmation is not enough and remains remote sensing, or illusion until more contact is shared... for instance, i sense this knowledge of sharing in, for example, mila kunis... mila jovovich... several others as well... <br />
<br />
it is much more than an awareness of the physical body, though sensuality is an essential aspect of being able to share... most people are afraid of the body, their own and others, neglecting and losing touch with it more and more (some never let themselves feel their own body even before the fear and repressions are learned, some never link the sensuality awareness with the consciousness because it is such a cultural taboo)... that is a sad feeling for me for sensuality is what life is about so not being consciously aware of your own sensuality wastes the body, the life... <br />
<br />
and personally... <br />
<br />
for me, the conscious awareness was clear in early childhood... and still, fear keeps others away... and hope for someone who can overcome their fear diminishes a little more every day... <br />
<br />
and that is a very sad <a href=http://bwme.blogspot.com/2013/03/no-secrets.html target="_blank">feeling</a> for me... <br />
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candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-74176206886313244332012-06-11T04:16:00.001-04:002012-06-11T04:16:59.363-04:00same old silence<center><br />
i am looking for a lover who won't drive me crazy<br />
and a lover who will not try to change me<br />
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex<br />
and can satisfy a body without wanting to be<br />
the beginning and end of my world<br />
can you just be satisfied getting your toes curled<br />
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free<br />
a lover who can share free love with me<br />
<br />
i do not want to use or abuse<br />
or put anyone one down<br />
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears<br />
that have plagued humanity for so many years<br />
<br />
i do not want the guilt or the shame<br />
there is no one to blame<br />
because there is nothing wrong with sharing<br />
physical love with someone caring<br />
<br />
can you love without the fear?<br />
can you let go of religious persecution?<br />
can you live without the lies?<br />
can you find your way out of the delusions?<br />
<br />
can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?<br />
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live<br />
<br />
i am looking for a lover who won't try to cage me<br />
a lover who will not try to judge or change me<br />
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex<br />
and can satisfy a body without wanting needing permission<br />
or any other arbitrary tradition or conditions<br />
can you just be satisfied reaching sensual fruition<br />
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free<br />
a lover who can share free love with me<br />
<br />
and i hear the same old silence<br />
maybe even an old gasp<br />
from the frightened hooked on violence<br />
living lies and rushing past<br />
all the lonely and deluded<br />
sold the ancient ignorance<br />
so afraid of looking foolish<br />
that they never join the dance<br />
hiding behind their walls<br />
pretending to ignore natures calls<br />
don't ask don't tell<br />
i don't buy what they sell<br />
<br />
i do not want to use or abuse<br />
or put anyone one down<br />
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears<br />
that have plagued humanity for so many years<br />
<br />
i do not want the guilt or the shame<br />
there is no one to blame<br />
because there is nothing wrong with sharing<br />
physical love with someone caring<br />
<br />
can you love without the fear?<br />
can you let go of religious persecution?<br />
can you live without the lies?<br />
can you find your way out of the delusions?<br />
<br />
can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?<br />
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live<br />
<br />
i am looking for a lover who will love honestly<br />
a lover who let go of corrupted morality<br />
i am looking for a friend who unafraid of the body<br />
and can share passion and embrace ecstasy<br />
when love is unconditional<br />
that's when it is beautiful<br />
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free<br />
a lover who can share free love with me<br />
<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-25312756775084692702011-09-09T02:52:00.001-04:002011-09-09T02:54:26.268-04:00return of loneliness<center><br />
the loneliness is deeper than the skin<br />
well beyond horniness<br />
a longing to share from within<br />
the deepest recesses<br />
of the heart and mind<br />
the secrets only the best friends<br />
can ever find<br />
<br />
would you take the time?<br />
would you really care?<br />
would you let yourself go<br />
and really share?<br />
<br />
would you give yourself?<br />
would you take me too?<br />
would you would you help create<br />
something made of me and you?<br />
<br />
could you handle honesty<br />
if we didn't turn each other on?<br />
could you be a true friend<br />
when the lust or novelty is gone?<br />
<br />
do you understand that loneliness<br />
is not love?<br />
and i am feeling loneliness so much<br />
<br />
could you handle honesty<br />
if it was just a physical thing?<br />
could you be a true friend<br />
or would you just be a fling?<br />
<br />
do you understand that loneliness<br />
is not love?<br />
and i am feeling loneliness so much<br />
<br />
could you be<br />
someone<br />
who understands?<br />
<br />
could you be<br />
someone<br />
who can hold hands?<br />
<br />
would you take the time?<br />
would you really care?<br />
would you let yourself go<br />
and really share?<br />
<br />
would you give yourself?<br />
would you take me too?<br />
would you would you help create<br />
something made of me and you?<br />
<br />
the loneliness is deeper than the skin<br />
well beyond horniness<br />
a longing to share from within<br />
the deepest recesses<br />
of the heart and mind<br />
the secrets only the best friends<br />
can ever find<br />
<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-72706349313599881882010-07-31T19:38:00.001-04:002016-04-08T01:11:25.001-04:00alone for yearsthe first time i fell in love i was not thinking much... so young and unconditional... naked, touching, humping, rolling on each other... so little fear at 4 years old... from then until just a few years ago i was in love and physically sharing love (and sexually active, shared or not) every day of this life... most years i had an active partner, but when i did not, i easily immersed myself in a fantasy of someone, at least visually... unconditional trust and falling in love was just being me... <br />
<br />
all that changed just after the millennium changed... i found myself less willing to compromise... but even from a distance, in fantasy, i found myself more challenged to find someone who would inspire me to fall in love... even on the pure physical level, i found myself more challenged to find someone who would turn on libido... and most important of all, i found myself more challenged than ever to find someone who inspired me to want to trust unconditionally... and i write this wondering - do you understand that?... or this?... <br />
<br />
and after a bit of wonderful masturbation earlier today i realized that it has been years since i fell in love with someone on any level... it is perspective, my perspective that has changed... i see the fear in the faces and i realize they do not trust themselves and therefore they cannot trust me and therefore, unlike before, i do not pretend to forget that i am a fool to unconditionally trust them... i know too much, see too much, feel too much, perceive too much, sense too much, and think too much... but how to un-know the signs?...candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-40616022941040880292010-06-08T02:48:00.001-04:002012-06-11T04:19:00.153-04:00alli wold tell you all my secrets if you cared to listen intensely enough to stay awake because you felt you could not stop listening for the sheer fascination of wanting to know me that much... <br />
<br />
we don't have to fall in love, we just have to care enough...candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-63662694426001384332010-04-04T23:31:00.000-04:002010-04-04T23:31:03.445-04:00sincerity<center><br />
if I fell in love with you<br />
would you want me to<br />
come closer<br />
or mover farther away<br />
<br />
if I fell in love with you<br />
oh what would you do<br />
come closer<br />
or move farther away<br />
<br />
intensity<br />
can be an enemy<br />
it’s much easier to be<br />
superficial friends<br />
<br />
but honesty<br />
has more appeal for me<br />
and yet sincerity<br />
leads to such sudden ends<br />
<br />
so if I simply smile at you<br />
would you want me to<br />
come closer<br />
or move further away<br />
<br />
if I simply smile at you<br />
oh what would you do<br />
come closer<br />
or move farther away<br />
<br />
humanity<br />
can be an enemy<br />
it’s much easier to be<br />
oblivious to love<br />
<br />
oh can you see<br />
that insecurity<br />
makes love the enemy<br />
and so they look above<br />
<br />
when the real world gets too scary<br />
do you pray<br />
or do you find a way<br />
to stay?<br />
<br />
reality<br />
can be an enemy<br />
it’s much easier to be<br />
lost in fantasy<br />
<br />
but honesty<br />
has more appeal for me<br />
and so sincerity<br />
is my way to be<br />
sincerity<br />
sets me free<br />
<br />
so if I shared myself with you<br />
whatever you choose to do<br />
come closer<br />
or move farther away<br />
<br />
I will still smile at you<br />
and wish you well<br />
and are free to come or go<br />
and if you want to know<br />
when my true feeling show<br />
I would rather <br />
you’d stay<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-21660142821430447372009-12-22T03:52:00.001-05:002009-12-22T03:56:37.860-05:00compromise<center><br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
right before your eyes<br />
it takes off your disguise<br />
love is compromise<br />
oh oh, compromise<br />
<br />
it would be nice to hold someone tonight<br />
to feel the softness of a lover's touch<br />
to rest against a supple breast, alright<br />
sometimes i miss a hug so much<br />
but complications and controls<br />
the human mind has other goals<br />
confused hearts judge and condemn <br />
other bodies and souls<br />
is that the way the cookie rolls?<br />
<br />
i don't want to buy or sell you<br />
don't want you to own me<br />
promises can come later<br />
with the illusion of eternity<br />
<br />
what i am trying to say is<br />
tomorrow is light years away<br />
and i don't want to waste any energy<br />
on what might or might never be<br />
or words we do not want to say<br />
today<br />
<br />
so please don't tell me lies<br />
and dreams can keep for when we sleep<br />
speak to me with your hands and thighs<br />
let this moment make love so deep<br />
that there is no other time<br />
no alibis<br />
just compromise<br />
<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
right before your eyes<br />
it takes off your disguise<br />
love is compromise<br />
oh oh oh, compromise<br />
<br />
if tomorrow you're still here<br />
maybe we will grow to care<br />
and reach for more things to share<br />
be together everywhere<br />
but each moment matters more<br />
and the one that came before<br />
and the one that's yet to be<br />
that's tomorrow's fantasy<br />
<br />
right now i feel you next to me<br />
and inside you can feel me rise<br />
touch the moment's reality<br />
dive into each others eyes<br />
form the bond between our lips<br />
bring heaven down from the skies<br />
unison dance in our hips<br />
this is love without the lies<br />
no other place no other time<br />
no alibis<br />
just compromise<br />
<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
right before your eyes<br />
it takes off your disguise<br />
love is compromise<br />
oh oh oh oh, compromise<br />
<br />
i am me and you are you<br />
whatever else might be true<br />
we can agree with our eyes<br />
leave behind all the old lies<br />
here is space, now is time<br />
no alibis<br />
just compromise<br />
<br />
there is ice and there is fire<br />
whatever else we may desire<br />
we can agree with our thighs<br />
leave behind all the old lies<br />
here is space, now is time<br />
no alibis<br />
just compromise<br />
<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
compromise<br />
love is compromise<br />
right before your eyes<br />
it takes off your disguise<br />
love is compromise<br />
oh oh oh oh, compromise<br />
oh oh oh oh, compromise<br />
oh oh oh oh, compromise<br />
<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-6016340848681709162009-12-16T02:41:00.003-05:002009-12-16T02:47:20.891-05:00alonenss<center><br />
feeling the aloneness<br />
not as lonely as I used to get<br />
is that something that I should regret<br />
as the longing for loving touches diminishes<br />
with each passing year<br />
knowing the end is closer now<br />
than it’s ever been<br />
knowing the best of life’s time<br />
is way back when<br />
at least physically<br />
there’s not much left of me<br />
and yet the magic only takes a moment<br />
and one moment of true love is an eternity<br />
so I hope as always<br />
it’ll happen to me<br />
<br />
just one more moment before this body dies<br />
just one more moment of this life’s greatest high<br />
just one more moment of the sharing of love’s bliss<br />
just one more moment, one more touch, one more kiss<br />
<br />
feeling the isolation<br />
not as frightened as I used to get<br />
is that something that I should regret<br />
as the desperation to be loved diminishes<br />
with each passing year<br />
knowing it’s not worth much unless<br />
someone wants to give it<br />
knowing all the wanting in the world<br />
will not make someone else live it<br />
and so physically<br />
there’s no one here with me<br />
and I don’t pretend I can force anyone<br />
share true love, so I wait and let it be<br />
and I hope as always<br />
someone will love me<br />
<br />
just one more moment before this body dies<br />
just one more moment of this life’s greatest high<br />
just one more moment of the sharing of love’s bliss<br />
just one more moment, one more touch, one more kiss<br />
<br />
softly, sweetly, touch the sweet sensation<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-1625294798702764942009-01-25T23:21:00.000-05:002009-01-25T23:23:14.581-05:00i will live<center>it’s an aching loneliness<br />i confess<br />was it the cat curling up<br />while i slept<br />that awoke this loneliness<br />what a mess<br />how much more am i to bear<br />growing need<br />emo bleed<br />desperate for someone to hear<br /><br />but not just anyone<br />no, not just anyone<br /><br />the wagons circle <br />shudders close<br />there must be someone <br />who knows<br />how to reach that part of me<br />so long sleeping<br />promise keeping<br />worshipping what no one sees<br />how alone<br />can any one person be<br /><br />but not just any one<br />oh, not just any one<br /><br />the eyes roll back<br />heartbeats relax<br />and i am ready to die…<br />but i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />for love<br />for love<br />for love<br /><br />it’s an aching loneliness<br />i confess<br />was it the cat curling up<br />while i slept<br />waking with a living breathing<br />animal in my arms<br />waking charms<br />what a mess<br />how much more am i to bear<br />growing need<br />emo bleed<br />desperate for someone to hear<br /><br />but not just anyone<br />no, not just anyone<br /><br />i mean no harm<br />i work hard to make that true<br />in every little thing i do<br />it is my way<br />and most of you<br />might say it is the way<br />of an innocent child, ok<br />maybe that is why i remain<br />alone again, unnaturally, in pain<br />please allow me to introduce myself<br />or please allow me to go insane<br /><br />the eyes roll back<br />heartbeats relax<br />and i am ready to die…<br />but i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />for love<br />for love<br />for love<br /><br />it’s an aching loneliness<br />i confess<br />was it watching the couples kissing<br />at the party<br />wishing someone was with me<br />in that way<br />what can i say<br />what a mess<br />how much more am i to bear<br />growing need<br />emo bleed<br />desperate for someone to hear<br /><br />but not just anyone<br />no, not just anyone<br /><br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love<br />i will live for love</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-46111689335859656962008-12-02T05:35:00.000-05:002008-12-02T05:36:25.333-05:00meaning<center>it really does not matter what i say<br />the words will keep flowing anyway<br />it means nothing more than what you want it to mean<br />what means something are the moments you share with me<br /><br />it really does not matter if this song is sung<br />the words will keep flowing now that it's begun<br />but the words were meaningless before it began<br />what means something are the moments you hold my hand<br /><br />and these words can tell the world how much i love you<br />and these words can give others hope they might find<br />someone who can make these words mean something true<br />but for me and you, it's just a song we leave behind<br />for what means something is what we feel in our hearts<br />and what we believe in our minds<br /><br />i believe in you<br />i believe you believe in me<br />the words are meaningless <br />what means everything, you see<br />is what we do for each other<br />what we do with each other<br />what i do for you<br />what you do for me<br />the moment we share<br />mean everything to me<br />the way that you care<br />means everything to me<br />each moment you are here<br />means everything to me<br /><br />it really does not matter if anyone hears<br />the words are only breaths we share<br />the words and breaths only mean what you want them to mean<br />what means something are the moments you are with me<br />each moment you are here means everything to me<br /></center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-45162363702180359752008-11-04T21:30:00.006-05:002008-11-04T21:45:38.728-05:00stranger at the orgy<center><br /><br />i'm not just here for sex<br />see, i'm looking for love<br />something to hold on to<br />something to be proud of<br />i'm not prude or celibate<br />but i'm not just here for the lust<br />i want something more from you<br />someone i can trust<br /><br />this is no passion play<br />even if you drive me wild<br />you might be my libido fantasy<br />but listen to me child<br /><br />i'm not just here for sex<br />but i am not afraid<br />so if you want to touch me<br />if you want to be laid<br /><br />you might get what you want here<br />but i want something more<br />and as i give it to you<br />i'll look for your closed door<br /><br />and ask for it to open<br />to see the real inside<br />for i am here to know you<br />and not just for the ride<br /><br />so what do you want?<br />we can spin the room around<br />let our feelings overflow<br />make that gasping suckling sound<br />put our primal selves in gear<br />leave all consciousness behind<br />and wake up in pools of passion<br />as if we both lost our mind<br /><br />and if that's all you can offer<br />a sigh comes with morning light<br />anyone can be your lover<br />but i'll pass on you tonight<br /><br />i'm not just here for sex<br />see, i'm looking for love<br />something to hold on to<br />something to be proud of<br />i'm not prude or celibate<br />but i'm not just here for the lust<br />i want something more from you<br />someone i can trust<br /><br />i'm not just here for sex<br />i don't want to pretend<br />i'm not just here for sex<br />i'm looking for a friend<br /><br /><br><br></center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-77060284620861080292008-10-15T06:41:00.000-04:002008-10-15T06:42:14.150-04:00fill in the blank<center>what does it take to earn your adoration<br />how can i be more attractive to you<br />do you know yourself well enough to express your desire<br />or does it just come up from behind and surprise you<br />i wish i knew what to do<br /><br />you are the most adorable person i've ever met<br />you match every dream lover i've ever known<br />my heart melts every time your eyes meet mine<br />your smile ignites fireworks in my mind<br />you walk into a room and i find<br />my libido panting<br />please be kind<br /><br />what can i do to find out how you feel about me<br />how can i know without pushing you away<br />if there is no attraction i still want to know you<br />i'll be your most loyal friend till my dying day<br />i wish i knew what to say<br /><br />you inspire me to want to be a better person<br />i will serve you to keep you somehow in my life<br />my heart grows everytime your eyes meet mine<br />your smile inspires compassion in my mind<br />you walk into a room and i find<br />my confidence rise<br />i unwind<br /><br />and if i am not the right one for you<br />that's alright because you inspire me<br />to believe in myself and all i knew<br />before i learned about cruelty<br />you take me back to a simpler time<br />when innocence still so strong and free<br />and hope was all i needed to rhyme<br />as i wrote the words would sing to me<br />you bring back my inner child<br />my inner voice<br />belief in fantasy<br />and you remind me<br />i have the choice<br />to create my reality<br /><br />so i'll just say thank you and move along<br />if you are not interested in knowing more<br />but if you don't mind, i'll sing this song<br />to you, ________ who i will always adore<br /></center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-28997637015775383922008-09-10T01:12:00.001-04:002008-09-10T01:15:35.925-04:00in the moment<center><br /> living in the moment always brings me ecstasy<br /> trusting every moment is the ideal way for me<br /> loving every moment can maintain my sanity<br /> and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free<br /><br /> cuz the moment is all you can ever really see<br /> if you want your fantasy to become reality<br /> live in the moment unconditionally<br /> cuz living in the moment is the best way to be<br /><br /> <br /><br /> fuck the brains out of the one who turns you on<br /> it doesn't really matter if tomorrow she is gone<br /> cuz you will have another fantasy to yearn for by then<br /> and if you find she's still around well do it again<br /><br /> and love every moment with all you can give<br /> that is the best way to be and to live<br /> don't let fear fool you into wasting time<br /> love every moment and make your life rhyme<br /><br /> believe this is true today<br /> because it is true everyday<br /> believe this one thing i say<br /> believe the right one will stay<br /> in that moment that will never fade away<br /><br /> so love every moment you can if you will<br /> the choice has always been yours, don't fear the thrill<br /> living in the moment is the way to ecstasy<br /> trusting every moment is the ideal way for me<br /><br /> loving every moment can maintain my sanity<br /> and when the vanity comes laugh at it and set it free<br /> cuz the moment is all you can ever really see<br /> if you want your fantasy to become reality<br /><br /> live in the moment unconditionally<br /> cuz living in the moment is the best way to be<br /> love in the moment unconditionally<br /> cuz loving in the moment is the best way to be<br /><br /> la la la<br /><br /></center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-5476506494451366382008-09-09T01:08:00.001-04:002009-12-16T02:53:55.110-05:00forgiveness<center><br />
so how the hell are you and what do you want<br />
to come out and play as if you can still flaunt<br />
the words that seduce me as only you can<br />
as long as i don't show how easy i am<br />
<br />
but you can pretend i am hard to get<br />
you can look past my slutty girl with no regret<br />
and my pathetic child is easy to forget<br />
beggars for love have no real home yet<br />
<br />
out on the street corner with those wide-eyes<br />
like a stray dog much more lucky than wise<br />
follow you home for as long as you say<br />
and after he's gone he never goes away<br />
<br />
but like that hotel in california<br />
the junkies and love children wouldn't warn ya<br />
'bout the endlessness of endless love maybe lust<br />
and the power of passion is what we should trust<br />
<br />
but we all choose to be just what we settle for<br />
even if there are demons knocking on the door<br />
we can keep them at bay with a cowardly roar<br />
cuz it's all just illusion to see or ignore<br />
<br />
so you want me to love you again here we are<br />
cuz running the same circle never gets us far<br />
and the love never changes even when we do<br />
ignore it, accept it, it's still up to you<br />
<br />
maybe now you might know this, maybe now you will cry<br />
for the child you set up and left behind to die<br />
gasp, but you won't back up if you really know what's true<br />
that child is not me she has always been you<br />
<br />
all the words ever written on the high or low shelf<br />
are worth less than nothing until...<br />
you forgive yourself<br />
<br />
. . .<br />
<br />
so how the hell are you and what do you want?<br />
to come out to play as if you can still flaunt<br />
the words that seduce me as only you can<br />
well be who you are that's a part of the plan<br />
<br />
(thank you dan)<br />
<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-89968175237471735462008-08-27T02:11:00.003-04:002009-12-16T02:51:06.142-05:00ride<center>my lips pressed against your shoulder<br />
my hands curved around your waist<br />
my body moving to the beat of your heart<br />
what better way for the passion to start<br />
<br />
i slip my hands a little further<br />
down and around to where you feel<br />
the magic of your love is pulsing<br />
one press of your button and the love is so real<br />
<br />
i can feel your body tremble spooned in mine<br />
you can feel me growing into you<br />
as our breathing reaches deeper into the night<br />
there is only one thing left to do<br />
<br />
ride the passion to the end of time<br />
ride the magic into one more rhyme<br />
ride the rhythm of the heartbeat song<br />
faster and faster this is where we belong<br />
<br />
ride the river of sweet sensation<br />
ride the waves of sensual vibration<br />
ride the rhythm of the heartbeat song<br />
faster and faster how could this be wrong<br />
<br />
ride the wonder of our love <br />
feel it growing strong<br />
ride the wonder of our love<br />
this is where we belong<br />
<br />
ride <br />
ride<br />
ride <br />
ride<br />
ride<br />
</center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-91984565183930466272008-08-26T01:21:00.003-04:002008-09-10T01:39:02.703-04:00what's it all about, alf?an adult blog, me?... am i gonna fill it with words like fuck shit cocksucker tit and whatever else george used to say?... maybe lenny would help... chanelling?... we shall see... for now, maybe i'll just let a little horndog bark... love on the floor... <br /><br /><center>she was almost adorable<br />and i found myself<br />wanting to lick her lips<br />all over<br /><br />i was undressing her all day<br />wondering what would happen<br />if work did not get in the way<br /><br />then she touched me<br />light and casual but it moved me<br />i could tell she sensed it<br />as her energy passed through me<br />her smile asked for more<br />and i walked her to the door<br /><br />then she touched me<br />soft and deliberate and it moved me<br />i could tell she liked it<br />as her smile sent shivers through me<br />her eyes asked for more<br />so we found an empty floor<br /><br />then she touched me<br />firm and sensual and it moved me<br />i could tell it moved her too<br />as her eyes rolled she said do me<br />her hands reached for more<br />never stripped so fast before<br /><br />light and color splashed before my eyes<br />bodies twisted glistening with passion<br />couldn't get close enough but kept trying<br />if i said she was good i'd be lying<br />she was so much better than that<br />fucking fantastic in fact<br />lips pressed hands all over <br />pull me pull me pull me closer<br /><br />love on the seventeenth floor<br />hearts harmonizing like never before<br />love on the seventeenth floor<br />lust was becoming so much more<br />wanting more wanting more wanting more<br />love on the floor<br /><br />oh how she touched me<br />wild and wonderful and how it moved me<br />i could tell she felt it too<br />felt her passion passing through me<br />bursting from the core<br />loving on the floor<br />lust becoming so much more<br />wanting more wanting more wanting more<br />love on the seventeenth floor<br /></center>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6631964654813304424.post-67181186174091831052008-08-25T02:07:00.002-04:002008-08-25T02:39:50.627-04:00adult friend finderor, for internet searching purposes, adult friendfinder (or AFF for that matter)... this blog begins inspired by my exploration of the <a href=http://adultfriendfinder.com target="_blank">adult friendfinder</a> website (which i found a long time ago when i was a member of the <a href=http://friendfinder.com target="_blank">friendfinder</a> website, like ten years ago, which was G rated and i don't even know if it's still there at the moment), an x rated social networking website which does everything in it's power to get you to pay for sex, or at least the opportunity to read profiles and connect with others who supposedly want sex... <br /><br />most of what i found there were people hiding behind profiles interested in little more than comment flirtation, idle titillation, cyber-sex, and other fff (fantasies from afar, fake friend finding, or some more vulgar anagrammatic silliness, you play with it and let me know what you come up with)... actual people interested in actual "friend finding" allusion in the site name might find it is more illusion than actuality, but then, there's always hope, which is why this blog, or at least this blog entry, is here... <br /><br />if you were wise enough to notice my repeated mentions of blogspot and came here to search for friendalover, then here we are... friend a lover, get it, i want a lover who won't drive me crazy (mentally or emotionally) while driving me well beyond crazy in bed (or wherever we happen to be sharing our passions)... in other words, i want to friend and lover... a lover who is a friend... possible?... anything is possible... <br /><br />even magic :)<br /><br />whether i return to continue this blog (and whatever this blog may become) may be seen in time, but for now it is here to let you find me, not the censored <i>must pay to meet me</i> AFF me, but the me you can meet through uncensored public comments, through private email at candor AT bellsouth DOT net, or by calling 407-325-1482... <br /><br />if you have not read my blog at AFF to see what i am looking for, then read on here and eventually you will know... if you do not want to read to see what i am looking for (or just don't care), then you are probably not what i am looking for... the first thing i am looking for is a friend, someone who cares to know me, someone who wants me to know her, someone who will make the time, share the time to do that... i shall return when i have the time and... <br /><br />we shall see where this goes together :)candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04395163846146800858noreply@blogger.com0