stranger at the orgy

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

this is no passion play
even if you drive me wild
you might be my libido fantasy
but listen to me child

i'm not just here for sex
but i am not afraid
so if you want to touch me
if you want to be laid

you might get what you want here
but i want something more
and as i give it to you
i'll look for your closed door

and ask for it to open
to see the real inside
for i am here to know you
and not just for the ride

so what do you want?
we can spin the room around
let our feelings overflow
make that gasping suckling sound
put our primal selves in gear
leave all consciousness behind
and wake up in pools of passion
as if we both lost our mind

and if that's all you can offer
a sigh comes with morning light
anyone can be your lover
but i'll pass on you tonight

i'm not just here for sex
see, i'm looking for love
something to hold on to
something to be proud of
i'm not prude or celibate
but i'm not just here for the lust
i want something more from you
someone i can trust

i'm not just here for sex
i don't want to pretend
i'm not just here for sex
i'm looking for a friend

adult friend finder

or, for internet searching purposes, adult friendfinder (or AFF for that matter)... this blog begins inspired by my exploration of the adult friendfinder website (which i found a long time ago when i was a member of the friendfinder website, like ten years ago, which was G rated and i don't even know if it's still there at the moment), an x rated social networking website which does everything in it's power to get you to pay for sex, or at least the opportunity to read profiles and connect with others who supposedly want sex...

most of what i found there were people hiding behind profiles interested in little more than comment flirtation, idle titillation, cyber-sex, and other fff (fantasies from afar, fake friend finding, or some more vulgar anagrammatic silliness, you play with it and let me know what you come up with)... actual people interested in actual "friend finding" allusion in the site name might find it is more illusion than actuality, but then, there's always hope, which is why this blog, or at least this blog entry, is here...

if you were wise enough to notice my repeated mentions of blogspot and came here to search for friendalover, then here we are... friend a lover, get it, i want a lover who won't drive me crazy (mentally or emotionally) while driving me well beyond crazy in bed (or wherever we happen to be sharing our passions)... in other words, i want to friend and lover... a lover who is a friend... possible?... anything is possible...

even magic :)

whether i return to continue this blog (and whatever this blog may become) may be seen in time, but for now it is here to let you find me, not the censored must pay to meet me AFF me, but the me you can meet through uncensored public comments, through private email at candor AT bellsouth DOT net, or by calling 407-325-1482...

if you have not read my blog at AFF to see what i am looking for, then read on here and eventually you will know... if you do not want to read to see what i am looking for (or just don't care), then you are probably not what i am looking for... the first thing i am looking for is a friend, someone who cares to know me, someone who wants me to know her, someone who will make the time, share the time to do that... i shall return when i have the time and...

we shall see where this goes together :)