feeling

feelings should not be secrets, and yet, that is how most treat them when they find them, keeping them hidden away... if you are hidden away, you don't share much so we won't share much... that is a sad feeling for me as sharing is what life is all about so not sharing wastes life... sometimes you can see that awareness in someone's eyes and movements, though visual confirmation is not enough and remains remote sensing, or illusion until more contact is shared... for instance, i sense this knowledge of sharing in, for example, mila kunis... mila jovovich... several others as well...

it is much more than an awareness of the physical body, though sensuality is an essential aspect of being able to share... most people are afraid of the body, their own and others, neglecting and losing touch with it more and more (some never let themselves feel their own body even before the fear and repressions are learned, some never link the sensuality awareness with the consciousness because it is such a cultural taboo)... that is a sad feeling for me for sensuality is what life is about so not being consciously aware of your own sensuality wastes the body, the life...

and personally...

for me, the conscious awareness was clear in early childhood... and still, fear keeps others away... and hope for someone who can overcome their fear diminishes a little more every day...

and that is a very sad feeling for me...

same old silence

i am looking for a lover who won't drive me crazy
and a lover who will not try to change me
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex
and can satisfy a body without wanting to be
the beginning and end of my world
can you just be satisfied getting your toes curled
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me

i do not want to use or abuse
or put anyone one down
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears
that have plagued humanity for so many years

i do not want the guilt or the shame
there is no one to blame
because there is nothing wrong with sharing
physical love with someone caring

can you love without the fear?
can you let go of religious persecution?
can you live without the lies?
can you find your way out of the delusions?

can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live

i am looking for a lover who won't try to cage me
a lover who will not try to judge or change me
i am looking for a friend who is not afraid of sex
and can satisfy a body without wanting needing permission
or any other arbitrary tradition or conditions
can you just be satisfied reaching sensual fruition
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me

and i hear the same old silence
maybe even an old gasp
from the frightened hooked on violence
living lies and rushing past
all the lonely and deluded
sold the ancient ignorance
so afraid of looking foolish
that they never join the dance
hiding behind their walls
pretending to ignore natures calls
don't ask don't tell
i don't buy what they sell

i do not want to use or abuse
or put anyone one down
i don't need the delusions or lies or fears
that have plagued humanity for so many years

i do not want the guilt or the shame
there is no one to blame
because there is nothing wrong with sharing
physical love with someone caring

can you love without the fear?
can you let go of religious persecution?
can you live without the lies?
can you find your way out of the delusions?

can you live in the moment and know this is all there is?
i am looking for a love who knows how to live and let live

i am looking for a lover who will love honestly
a lover who let go of corrupted morality
i am looking for a friend who unafraid of the body
and can share passion and embrace ecstasy
when love is unconditional
that's when it is beautiful
i am looking for a lover who knows that love is free
a lover who can share free love with me