feeling

feelings should not be secrets, and yet, that is how most treat them when they find them, keeping them hidden away... if you are hidden away, you don't share much so we won't share much... that is a sad feeling for me as sharing is what life is all about so not sharing wastes life... sometimes you can see that awareness in someone's eyes and movements, though visual confirmation is not enough and remains remote sensing, or illusion until more contact is shared... for instance, i sense this knowledge of sharing in, for example, mila kunis... mila jovovich... several others as well...

it is much more than an awareness of the physical body, though sensuality is an essential aspect of being able to share... most people are afraid of the body, their own and others, neglecting and losing touch with it more and more (some never let themselves feel their own body even before the fear and repressions are learned, some never link the sensuality awareness with the consciousness because it is such a cultural taboo)... that is a sad feeling for me for sensuality is what life is about so not being consciously aware of your own sensuality wastes the body, the life...

and personally...

for me, the conscious awareness was clear in early childhood... and still, fear keeps others away... and hope for someone who can overcome their fear diminishes a little more every day...

and that is a very sad feeling for me...